Sunday, December 13, 2009
Tonight we lit a candle for our sweet little jelly bean Kuylen Stafford as a part of a movement done by an international bereavement group. One little light for our tiny baby boy. Our son. Honestly, there are no words to appropriately describe any of this - though I sure have tried in my own feeble way.
You will forever live in my heart and be on my mind. I still-and always will- remember your soft kicks, your ultrasound wiggles, your sweet peaceful final grin when all was quiet and there were no more tubes, no more machines and you were able to gently fade away in our arms. I can still trace your features in my mind - your nose, your eyes, your mouth, your tiny tiny toes. 10 little fingers. My perfection. Our beautiful gift. Our lesson in grace, strength, and knowing when to let go - no matter our agony or perceived need.
My angel. I am so so proud to be your mom.